Wednesday, January 26, 2011

I'm A Fighter....

I absolutely love the lyrics to the song, Fighter, by Christina Aguilera. It is definitely my motivational, kick-butt, get me out of a funk song. In fact, I listen to it occasionally before heading into the gym for a workout and it's on most of my running playlists and is marked on my Nike iPod Sport as my Power Song! What is it about this song that motivates me so much and pushes me? I am not really sure but the first time I heard it, it connected with something deep within me. I AM a Fighter.

I have always been a fighter. Even in moments when I feel like I have given up, something in my spirit will not allow me to throw in the towel. If you corner me, I will come out swinging. If you cage me, I will do everything within my power to escape.

Here are the lyrics that ring so true for me:

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter


Every time I need an extra push during my workouts, I think about these lyrics. When things in life start to frustrate me, I remember that being a fighter is part of who I am. Even though circumstances may not be part of my plan, I will fight for what I want. If you tell me that I can't do something, then I generally do everything within my power to prove you wrong.

When I was in Nashville last year, I found a company that I absolutely love that has a whole set up built around me. The company is called...Say I Won't. I love their stuff. I purchased one of their shirts and it's my favorite. It reminded me of when I was still 100 pounds overweight and at the beginning of my weight loss journey and I decided that I was going to complete a half-marathon. It amazed me that so many people looked at me like I was crazy and in fact, I know from several people, they gave me the "Sure you will" comment and probably laughed behind my back. Who's laughing now? Five half-marathons later and still going strong. Here's the slogan from Say I Won't:

Tell me that I can't do it.
Tell me that I shouldn't even try.
Tell me it's impossible.
Tell me the risk is too high, the challenge too much,
Or the feat too tough.
Tell me that I won't do it
And I WILL.

Yep, that about sums me up. I have always been like that. Even as a young child, I challenged my parents and authorities when told I couldn't do something. (Not always, but enough to have been labeled strong-willed.)

Recently, a friend of mine, who I refer to as the Hulk, mentioned in a Facebook post that he told someone at his gym that he was going to complete a triathlon and was told that he was too bulky. Now, the Hulk, is in amazing shape. I would never tell him he cannot complete a triathlon, much less any other task he sets his mind too because he is determined. I have no doubt in my mind that he will do an amazing job at a triathlon and I will be cheering him on while he trains and completes it!

Some people have the determination to push towards their goals. In the face of adversity, they struggle through whatever it takes to complete their goals.

Another of my friends, who I refer to as "Taz," is like that. He is an Ironman. He runs triathlons, completes half-marathons, full marathons, bikes, and does Ironman events. He is the Taz because you can't really slow him down. He is determined to achieve the goals he sets before himself. When I decided I wanted to complete 6 half-marathons, this year, I turned to him for advice. I recognize a kindred spirit in him. I was being told by others that this was a crazy plan and that I couldn't do it and I would end up injured. So, I reached out to someone that I knew has been there and could guide me.

Taz and Hulk are just two of my friends who are kindred spirits. When others say they can't do something, they respond with "Challenge accepted!" I am honored to have them as my friends. I consider them my fellow fighters. And I have many other fellow fighters out there that I am honored to have as friends.

And even though, it irks me quite a bit that negative people out there seem to think that spreading their doubts into my life can keep me at their level or keep me from achieving my goals, I understand that there are people who just don't have the spirit to complete their goals or to work towards them. And if you are that naysayer...I ask that you keep telling me that I cannot achieve my goals or that I am crazy. Because all you are doing is pushing me even harder to reach those goals. I will not stop. I will prove you wrong every time.

So, go ahead...count me out. But I warn you, stand back because I always come out of my corner swinging...


Monday, January 24, 2011

Changes...

People who know me well know that I am not a fan of change. I like routines. I can definitely be spontaneous but for the most part I like knowing what is going on. Lately, changes are just abounding in my life and I am never sure what's going to happen next.

I admit that sometimes change is good. When Tye accepted his new job, I had the opportunity to train with Tripp. That was the most amazing change for me. After working with Tripp for 2 and a half months, I was able to shave 5:30 off my half-marathon time from last October. That's awesome progress. As nervous as I was about working with Tripp, the change was awesome and I am so thankful for the time that we had to work together.

Last week was rough for me. There's a whole lot of stuff going on and a lot of things were just not turning out as I expected them to. One of those things that set my world completely off kilter was that Tripp quit last Tuesday. This was so not the news I wanted to hear. I was making plans....I wanted to knock even more time off my next half-marathon. I was planning on re-signing a training contract with him to see how much more work we could do to improve my running as well as get me towards my weight loss goals. I was excited about the work we were going to do together. So, when I got the call that he was no longer going to be at my gym...I was brokenhearted and really, really angry. I was not angry with Tripp though. I know he had the best reasons for what he did and I respect him greatly. But I am really devastated that we won't be working together.

I met with Tripp last Friday for lunch. He is a truly amazing guy. My contract for personal training is about to be up in 2 weeks. Since I am completely paid up, I will finish my last two weeks with another trainer. I am hoping the new trainer will be willing to stick with the plan that Tripp set up for me. He knows my plans and goals and set up our workouts based on that. So, my true hope is that the new trainer will be willing to continue with the plan we had. After I finish that training, I will be training myself.

Sounds strange, doesn't it? Me training myself. Yep, that's right. When Tripp and I had lunch, he did something very amazing for me. He wrote me 9 new workout plans that I can use for about the next 6 months. I have 4 other workout plans that he had already written for me. These plans are all set up to help me achieve my running goals and weight loss goals. I am more than thrilled about the workouts he wrote for me!

So, change can be good. I am really excited about the new workouts that Tripp wrote for me. I will miss him dearly as my trainer. I already do. But we are still friends and we will stay in touch. I know that if I have any questions or concerns about strength training or nutrition, I can always count on him. Also, he promised me that he would come to my race in March and run the last mile with me. That is just plain awesomeness!! I am going to be working my butt off the next several weeks to get to that race and I cannot wait. But we will continue with the plan...running injury free. If I am going to run a total of 6 half-marathons this year, then I absolutely need to stick to the plan!!!

So, I will be finishing up the next two weeks with a new trainer. And then, I am on my own (or truthfully, I am following Tripp's plan for me.) This is a whole new world for me...I have had trainers for the past two years. And although, I started my journey on my own and have learned a lot but I know there is still a lot for me to learn. And if Tripp does go to a new gym to train, I will most definitely consider following him. But for now, I am going to focus on the plan.

I doubt that I will ever truly be a fan of change. But I am going to do my best to think positively about the changes that are coming.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

My Latest Half-Marathon Playlist

A few weeks ago, I mentioned that I was compiling a new playlist for my half-marathon. Several friends asked me if I would post that list. So, here is the list of songs that I had in my playlist for the half-marathon. Word of warning...I listen to just about every and anything. I love music. Songs that some find offensive, I may like for the music not the lyrics. I am able to listen to music without paying the slightest bit of attention to lyrics. Weird...maybe, but absolutely true. So, if you are someone who feels the need to be judgmental about what I may be listening to or if you are easily offended, please skip this post.

If you're still reading...I love this music. The majority of the songs on there are performed by females. There are a few exceptions to that, but my friend suggested that I make my playlist a "Girl Power" list.

Here's what I listened to during my 13.1 mile run :)

My First Kiss (feat. Ke$ha) 3OH!3
Pump It Black Eyed Peas
Just Can't Get Enough Black Eyed Peas
My Humps Black Eyed Peas
I Did It For Love (featuring Sean Garrett) BoA
Dress Off BoA
Obsessed BoA
Hypnotic Dancefloor BoA
Fighter Christina Aguilera
Can't Hold Us Down Christina Aguilera
Not Myself Tonight Christina Aguilera
Fallin' for You Colbie Caillat
You Decide Fireflight
Unbreakable Fireflight
Stronger Woman Jewel
Teenage Dream Katy Perry
Hot N Cold Katy Perry
Waking Up In Vegas Katy Perry
Peacock Katy Perry
Firework Katy Perry
California Gurls (feat. Snoop Dogg) Katy Perry
Your Love Is My Drug Ke$ha
Take It Off Ke$ha
Kiss N Tell Ke$ha
We R Who We R Ke$ha
Blah Blah Blah (Feat. 3OH!3) Ke$ha
TiK ToK Ke$ha
My Life Would Suck Without You Kelly Clarkson
If I Can't Have You Kelly Clarkson
Whyyawannabringmedown Kelly Clarkson
I Do Not Hook Up Kelly Clarkson
I Run To You Lady Antebellum
Love This Pain Lady Antebellum
Telephone Lady GaGa
Bad Romance Lady GaGa
LoveGame Lady GaGa
Monster Lady GaGa
Just Dance feat. Colby O'Donis Lady GaGa
Poker Face Lady GaGa
Disco Heaven (Bonus Track) Lady GaGa
So Happy I Could Die Lady GaGa
Paparazzi Lady GaGa
Money Honey Lady GaGa
Starstruck ft. Space Cowboy & Flo Rida (US Bonus) Lady GaGa
I Like It Rough Lady Gaga
Spank My Booty (Reprise) Lords of Acid
Pump My Body to the Top Lords of Acid
Mister Machoman Lords of Acid
Ride Martina McBride
Can't Be Tamed Miley Cyrus
Party In the U.S.A. Miley Cyrus
The Time of Our Lives Miley Cyrus
Kicking and Screaming Miley Cyrus
I Will Run Misty Edwards
One Way or Another My Fitness Music
Girl's Just Wanna Have Fun My Fitness Music
U + Ur Hand P!nk
Stupid Girls P!nk
There You Go P!nk
Raise Your Glass P!nk
Get the Party Started P!nk
Don't Let Me Get Me (Radio Edit) P!nk
Try Too Hard P!nk
Trouble P!nk
Funhouse P!nk
Bad Influence P!nk
So What P!nk
F**kin' Perfect P!nk
Respect P!nk & Scratch
That's What You Get Paramore
Pressure Paramore
CrushCrushCrush Paramore
Holding Out for a Hero (Workout Remix) Power Music Workout
Disturbia Rihanna
Only Girl (In the World) Rihanna
Can't Get You Out Of My Head S.H.E
Click Click Boom Saliva
I Can't Explain Sixpence None The Richer
Rock What You Got Superchick
It's On Superchick
One Girl Revolution (Battle Mi Superchick
Bowling Ball Superchick
One More Superchick
Cross The Line Superchick
Me Against The World Superchick
Anthem Superchick
Get Up (Heelside Mix) Superchick
Carmina Burana Trans-Siberian Orchestra
Tracers Trans-Siberian Orchestra

Monday, January 17, 2011

Charleston Half-Marathon Race Report

First half-marathon of the year...done...finished...history. Personally, I am hoping that the next 5 go a lot smoother than this. I have never in my entire running career been this frustrated before, during and after a half-marathon. It was certainly not one that I could write about how I did 13.1 and was still smiling.

So, the race I ran this past weekend was the 2nd Riverfront Race Festival's Charleston Half-Marathon. I figured since Charleston hosts the Cooper River Bridge Run and it goes fairly well, they would do well with this one. They definitely have some room for improvement, but that's a growing pain issue so hopefully they will listen to the runners and make some changes. Here's how my weekend panned out...

Friday, Chuck and I did a great stretching session with my trainer, Tripp before heading back to the house, showering, grabbing a quick lunch and heading to Charleston. Tripp gave me a thumbdrive with the MP3s that he spent about 2 hours recording for me to go on my iPod. I was so very stoked about them and couldn't wait to listen to them. My plan was to download them on to the playlist and then strategically place a message every several minutes (depending upon how many there were). When I went to put them on the computer, I discovered the first disappointment of the weekend...they were not on the thumbdrive. Tripp was really upset. However, as I told him, he told me the one thing I needed to hear from him on Thursday when we were training. He told me that even if I had to walk the whole race and did my absolute best, that he would still be proud of me. That meant so much to me. I cannot wait to get the MP3s from him tomorrow and listen to them and use them at my next race in March.

Also, on Friday, we picked up our race packets, bibs and t-shirts. We got in there and got everything with relative ease. After grabbing all the information, we both realized that neither of us remembered what time the race started and where the start line was. I knew where we would be parking (near the start) but that was it. So, I scoured their website for the information and could not find it anywhere. I searched for the information in one of the pre-race e-mails they sent us and found nothing. Thankfully, on one of the e-mails we had a phone number of someone to call. After calling the number, I found out that our race started at 8 a.m. and we needed to be just a short distance away from the parking garage area for the start.

We ate our pre-race dinner at an amazing little restaurant in Mt. Pleasant. You should totally check this place out if you are feeling Italian. La Pizzeria was delicious. We ordered a fusilli con pollo dish (cream sauce with homemade fusilli noodles, pan-fried pancetta, chicken, and artichokes) and a pizza with black olives, artichokes, mushrooms and sausage. The pizza was okay...a bit pricey and they tend to have their specials as what you would maybe expect at true Italian restaurants. The fusilli dish was delicious...I believe we both could have enjoyed having our own plate rather than sharing!! Yummy :) After pre-race dinner, we headed back to the hotel and started planning out race day and preparing.


We got up about 5:45 on race morning. The plan was to get dressed, grab breakfast and leave the hotel a bit before 7 and get to the start line early. When we woke up, it was about 27 degrees outside with about a 4 mph windchill. Yep, that's chilly. I grabbed our preworkout (1MR) and mixed doses for us both. Then, I got the rest of my gear ready to go. We left the hotel about 7:15 and got to the parking area by 7:30. We finished getting ready by the car, drank our preworkout and headed to the start line. It was soooooo cold out!!!!

It was a confusing start line area. As we were walking up, people were warming up by walking or running in the direction we were coming from. There was no clear delineation that we were in fact near the start line. And it made me a bit nervous. I took a few pictures for Chuck since this was his first ever half-marathon and then we waited for the start. The gun went off and we had the slowest run ever to get started. Once the path cleared up a bit, we were able to do more than walk towards the start line. I crossed over and that might very well be the last time I saw Chuck...he was in the zone!

This race, I really was focused on closing in on my best race time from last February (3:07:12)...that was the race where I tore my labrum in my hip. I wanted to beat my best time. I won't lie, I was hoping to beat that time. I ran Myrtle Beach in October...my first half since surgery and ran it in 3:16:11. So, I was really wanting to improve my time and of course, for me looking for that elusive under 3 hour half-marathon. So, I had a good mindset. There were no doubts about whether I could finish or fears that I wouldn't make it in under 3:30. I was ready.

For the first 6 miles or so, I kept a pretty awesome pace. I was pounding out the miles and focusing. I promised both Chuck and Tripp not to make friends on this race and get sidetracked from my goal. I know that I have that habit and I needed to focus on my race. So, I kept to myself. It was me and my iPod. My playlist was a selection of all female music...it was a Girl Power list :) The mile markers were really well-placed for the first 9 miles or so. Every two miles, there was a water and gatorade station. About mile 4, I drank a gatorade (grape flavored), this was not a wise choice for me. I would later around mile 10 end up having it come back to visit but not puking it. Yuck!

About 2 hours and 20 minutes into the race, I was running perhaps one of my best races ever. I was on par for finishing really close to that 3 hour mark. I was not feeling any pain yet and was keeping a pretty great pace. Round about that time, a police man drove by on a motorcycle announcing that all runners and walkers needed to "get on the sidewalk if you are going to continue or get on the bus as it is passing you." Seriously, the bus was already picking people up and well, I have been in a position where I have known the bus was somewhere behind me and knew that I had to keep moving faster to stay off the bus. But I am now running my best race and I am being passed by the bus. I freaked out. And not just a minor freak out. This broke my concentration. It broke my spirit and definitely broke my pace.

After being passed by the bus, I figured this would be the end of the insults. I was wrong. The bus passing me was the start of it. Then, several of us would determine that they were no longer blocking off streets and the volunteers were now very sparse. There were several streets where myself and other runners had to wait for traffic to pass. I will admit as soon as I saw no cars, I hauled butt across the street and did not wait for the traffic sign to notate that it was safe to cross. I hit about 3 of these situations and got angrier each time. Then, the mile markers became sparse and with few volunteers, I became a bit more frantic. At one point, there were two runners about 15 feet ahead of me and other runners were crossing to the other side of the street but I could not determine why. I kept following the two runners in front of me who eventually crossed the street and then they turned down a side street. By the time I turned down the side street, they had all but disappeared!! I was freaked out. I managed to determine which way they went and followed them as quickly as I could. At this point, I just barely missed being hit by two cars in the neighborhood we were now running through!!

We were also promised bananas and hammer gels at mile 10. There were barely cups of water and gatorade at mile 10 and there certainly were not volunteers handing out cups. I had to grab my own. I guess I should be thankful that I didn't have to pour my own cups! At mile 11, I ended up not watching the road closely enough and stepped into a big pothole and twisted my ankle. Ouch! It wasn't a horrible twist but enough to start giving my left calf real issues when I was running. I started having horrible leg cramps in that calf! I got through the worst of it. I admit it was really difficult for me though when the 10k runners who were finishing up joined the course. They were running past me looking so refreshed and one of them turned to me and said "Come on. You can do this." I barely resisted the urge to be ugly. I was hurting at this point and angry and unfocused, but I soldiered on because they would be handing me my medal!

Mile 12, while the scenery was beautiful while we ran through a Riverfront park, was the longest mile ever...it seemed to wind on and on. Every time I thought I was closer to the finish, there was another twist and turn. Then finally, there was the finish line. I was so ready to cross the line. I did so and grabbed my medal and had my finishers' photo taken.

I found Chuck with somewhat ease. Speedy Gonzales ran the race 2:20:12. He encountered a few issues along the way including losing both headphones during the race and not having any music. He said it was quite difficult to run a race for 2.5 miles counting just your pace and breaths! I am quite thankful my headphones did not break (we bought new 180s headphone earwarmers for the race...great cold weather plan when the earphones aren't defective!) Also, he was unable to find any Gatorade or electrolyte drinks following the race. So, as he waited for me to cross the line, he ended up crashing. He threw up a few times and after I crossed we found a water station with bananas and oranges. Never found any Gatorade. We ended up getting on the bus to head back to the start line and parking garage. We ended up sitting in the back of the short bus (no seats just in the cargo area) and that was interesting. There were 7 of us cramped in the back. The driver asked us to sit down on the floor. At this point, Chuck got a huge calf cramp and my left hip locked completely. A little bit further on the ride, my right hip locked and Chuck started getting really pale and looked like he was about to puke again. Luckily, there was no puking on the bus. But in the parking garage, he spent a good 2 minutes puking.

I got him back to the hotel and threw him in the shower and tried to help him through the crash as best I could. It was horrible. I got cleaned up and nursed him for awhile. Then I grabbed lunch for us about 3 hours after the race (not smart for me!) and both of us had trouble eating. It was a stellar post race.

One would think with all that going on that I would be relieved when I finally got my race results in. It was at least what I had hoped for...a culmination of all my hard effort. No. It was not to be. I wore both my Garmin Forerunner and my iPod Sport for the race. I started the iPod as soon as I started running and I turned the Garmin on a bit late. And I ended up turning off the iPod a bit late. So, nothing I had on me had the correct time. Results finally got posted and Chuck got his official time. I was very excited for him and went to find my results. I searched and searched and searched and found no results for me. I have been angry before when I didn't get a finish line photo but to not have your time recorded is the worst. I knew for a fact that I hit the pad both on starting and finishing. The only thing I could figure was that the night before I had noticed that Chuck's timing chip was at the bottom of his bib and mine was at the top....but could that really have made the difference?

Luckily, I had that phone number I had called the day before about the time of the race and I took a chance that maybe someone might answer. As luck would have it, it was the phone number for the director of the race. He gave me an e-mail address for the timing company and promised they would fix it. And I gave him an earful about the royal screw-ups from the race. I made a point of letting him know that I was not new to this game and this was my 5th half-marathon. I know it's only their 2nd year, but they need to step up their game considerably.

After having the wind completely knocked out of my sails, I finally got my race results today. I ran the race in 3:10:41. This means I shaved 5:30 off of my time from October. And I am only 3:29 off of my best time. I am hopeful that Tripp and I can keep working and shave more of that off before my next half in March.

Ultimately, I am pleased with my results. After all that struggle, I can honestly say I earned the cheap medal and ugly t-shirt. I have felt exhausted and like I have been run over by a bus for the past couple of days. But the worst is over. I will take it easy this week and a little light next week and then back to training for the half in March. I am really hoping to close in on my under 3 hour half.

And just to seal the deal on having 3 half-marathons under my belt by the end of April, I scheduled my next appointment with my tattoo artist today to add 3 more flowers to the ankle tattoo :) Oh yeah...it's on. Columbia in March and Palmetto in April :) I also got a little focusing reminder added today while I was scheduling...my mantra is now on my arm for me to read when training and running..."NO EXCUSES". Oh yeah, bring on the next two half-marathons...I am ready!

Friday, January 7, 2011

6 Half-Marathons in One Year?!?!?!?!

Yep, that's right. I said it and I am going to do it. I am going to put this as my number one goal for the year 2011. I want to run 6 marathons this coming year. I have been working on my running and working with my trainer, Tripp, on improving my muscle endurance and strengthening my core to be an injury-free runner.

I have been told that running 6 half-marathons in one year is crazy. Well, I started out in 2008 running/walking one half-marathon and that was crazy. Then, 2009 brought 3 half-marathons, 2 10ks, 2 5ks and a hip surgery and that was crazier. So I guess I will have to continue on my path of craziness :)

I am realistic about the half-marathons. I do not necessarily want to get a personal record on every one of them. Although if I did, that would be totally awesome to me :) I will be using some of them as training for the next race. I certainly will do my best in each race and reach for my own personal goals. However, I am not going to stress myself to kill myself each race because that would cause me to burn out before I get to the next one. I have learned to pace myself and will be doing that during training and each race.

And for those questioning my sanity, it's not a bad plan. I know of others who have even higher goals set for themselves for the year. I am a very determined person. I am goal-oriented and I love pushing myself towards my goals. Setting this as my goal for the year will cause me to be focused and ready to go. And I am looking at doing a full marathon in 2012 or later so this will be good training grounds for that.

If I had not been sidelined last year by my hip surgery, I think I might have attempted another half. However, hip surgery and recovery brought me quite a bit of difficulty and stress. In fact, at one point, I was unsure whether I wanted to race again or even run again. There was a period of depression and a period where my mental toughness was called in to question.

Now, I am back and I am stronger. I owe this in part to my trainer, Tripp, and in part to two of my friends who I have done races with, Cathy and Chuck. Tripp has changed up my strength training routines to help me strengthen some areas that will help improve my running and most importantly help me to run injury free. He has helped me to feel like my goals are more than achievable and improved my balance and made me excited about training again. Cathy and Chuck have helped me to focus and kept me going when I didn't want to. They both have encouraged me to keep pushing it. Chuck has even worked with me on improving my running form so that I am a better runner. I am so blessed to have them all in my corner!

So mentally, I am ready for race #1 next weekend. Will I get a PR (personal record)? I don't know. What I do know is that I have a strategy and a game plan. I will be getting some MP3s from my awesome trainer to add to my running playlist...those will be a great encouragement on my run! I will be spending the next few days in preparation for the race. I have one last leg day and a strength training session and a light training day with some stretching planned. I will get a little bit more mileage in this week but nothing crazy.

Come next Saturday morning, the race is on!